Exceeding your own expectations in 2020

I have for a long time believed that our potential as humans is often limited by our own expectations of ourselves. Our growth or stagnancy in various areas of our lives is largely determined by what we believe we are, or are not, capable of.  These beliefs can be influenced by our culture, media, family of origin, friends, spouse, colleagues, friends, etc. It's important to take time to reflect on what you believe about yourself: what do you believe you're capable of? What's too far beyond your reach, and why? Who has spoken into your life in either positive or negative ways that have influenced what you believe your capabilities to be?

In many ways my husband has been a major mentor of mine, teaching me (when I'm teachable) and counseling me to do things that produce growth that will reap benefits in the future.

Early on in my marriage, my husband challenged me to face many of my fears head on, which sent me on a trajectory of intentionally going after challenges and believing that I am capable of more than I initially realized. He taught me to handle difficult things like:

• having difficult conversations, accepting the fact that I can healthily engage in conflict without fear
• setting appropriate boundaries in life and work
• learning to listen more than I speak, and asking the kinds of questions that let others feel loved and heard
• facing fears of hard work, of solving problems that I've never solved before, of the unknown, etc. 

I want to take a minute and focus more on the fear thing. Fear is a powerful force in all of our lives. Fear can be debilitating, it can control our minds and emotions. It can cause us to be completely paralyzed. It can deceive us into believing the worst case scenario will come to pass. But fear is a liar and almost never does worst case scenario actually happen. Fear can cause us to believe that our mistakes define us, our lives are meaningless and there's no hope for future change, let alone victory. I sometimes live in this kind of fear and doubt in certain areas of my life where I know (or think I know, because I'm believing my own self-limiting fear) that I am unable to make necessary the changes to get myself unstuck and experience victory.

You could be limited in any of these areas and perhaps many more by fear. 

I'll never get it together in the area of:

• diet
• physical fitness
• relationships with family
• thriving at the workplace
• personal organization and/or time management
• decision making, prioritization
• personal discipline in areas such as: getting more sleep, getting up early, less screen time
• reading more
• work/life balance
• parenting
• professional development
• marriage struggles, same conflicts different day/month/year
• controlling my emotions
• my alcohol consumption
• learning to get along with that person that irritates me

I have found that when I experience victories in life (whether macro or micro) they have the power to propel me from stuck to unstuck in any of the areas listed above. They are powerful forces of encouragement that give me hope that I can completely dispense with my excuses and expect victory to come. It may just be in smaller sized chunks than I initially expected. These small victories show us the challenge from another perspective, the perspective that the challenge wasn't as big as you initially thought when you look at it through the lens of hope. 

I have found myself keeping mental notes of victories that empower me to tackle other challenges because they give me courage that I am surprised by, and my expectations of my own potential get knocked down. I am capable of more and greater things than I expect of myself. The first time I spoke publicly in front of a group was one of these experiences. I was nauseous and downright terrified. I was determined that no matter what, I was just going to relax and be myself. After the speaking gig, I felt so exhilarated I couldn't wait to find another thing to tackle that I was terrified of!

I had the same feeling after a triathlon.
Same feeling after finishing Russian language school.
Same feeling after the completion of a complex event or project I organized at work.
Same feeling after having a really difficult conversation with my spouse, child or coworker (that I knew was necessary and delivered in love).

If I could describe the feeling it would be in these two words: BRING IT!!!

I have found myself becoming addicted to this feeling. It's like I'm pushing myself to the edge and in the facing of the fear and stretching of myself, I realize I can do more and greater things. And then I am looking for bigger challenge, unsatisfied with lack of challenge.

As we launch into a new year, 2020, the year of perfect vision, let's take time to look at what our goals are, but more importantly, what things aren't on our goal list because we don't believe ourselves capable of completing?

How can you make this year a year of enjoying the feeling of pushing past your fears and experiencing the joy of knowing that you are capable of much more?